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June/July 2025 | In June after I entered into Chapter 24 , I had made the decision to go all in for the Lord. I began the process of "No Longer Being LukeWarm". During this process I don't know exactly what I was expecting but I know that I WAS NOT expecting to be faced with the type of obstacles that were thrown at me . I faced challenges that SEEMED to be so "small" but actually took the biggest toll on me and revealed SO MUCH to be about my self , my true heart , my faith , and this walk as a whole. In the midst of the conflict I found myself getting out of character , wanting vengeance , being discouraged , and slightly going into this dark space. At the time , I felt undervalued , overlooked , and disregarded. Two things that I struggle with most is 1- Controlling my emotions & 2- Delivering my emotions ; so when I feel unheard I tend get fueled up to a point where my built up emotions start coming out ... in a way that could be viewed as UNCHRISTLIKE , to some — although it is not my intent , it is the of me as a human/sinner who is in need of a savior.I spent days in my mind wondering "Why would the Lord allow me to go through this" or how could someone view me as "not reflecting Christ" when I've worked so hard to get to this point. I pointed the fingers , fell victim , & looked at everyone BESIDES myself. That is when the Lord showed me that "IF" you have worked so hard to get to this point , how could you turn back to the person that you say you no longer desire to be? He said this is not about ANYONE ELSE , NO MATTER what you feel like they did , but this is about YOU — the one who PROFESSES to be a Christian , the one who is suppose to WITNESS to the world EVEN in GREAT affliction , the one who is supposed to LIVE UP to the standard of my word. Lesson/Conviction: I learned that I was trying to do the work IN OF MYSELF and not allowing HIM to do the work in me . When we are relying on our OWN strength that's when we FALL but when we rely on the strength of the Lord to overcome difficulties , the power of VICTORY is made available — A PROMISE. He showed me that I was not fully surrendered to him .. because If I was .. I would not be taking matters into my own hands or even having a thought about it , instead I would be operating in the LIKENESS of HIS IMAGE and HIS IMAGE ONLY , at ALL TIMES even in the midst of chaos and provocation. We are to look at every situation ( good or bad ) as an opportunity to go to the creator , & to be a better individual. Understanding that the Lord won't put us through anything that we can't handle , it is US who have to make a decision to allow him to intercede. I am blessed and grateful for every single thing that I encountered DURING this time because the Lord has shown me where I still fall short , and what I need to work on 💓 By his , I will continue to press forward , and stay grounded because I know that the he sees me , even if no one else does🙏🏾 Each day is a learning process , daily dying to self , and allowing him to shape me into the woman that he has called me to be . If God be for us , who can be against us? I am grateful💐 After all —The Lord sent my family to come and be with me at the right time , in the midst of chaos , to encourage me , shower me with love , uplift me , hold my hand , and pull me out that darkness. Who knew that I would be going through this at the time of their visit ? A simple reminder of — DEUTERONOMY 31:8 (KJV) | "And the LORD, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed". #personaljourney #faithbased #blessed #christian #steadfast
